Second life choice- what am I going to do next fall?
I want to prevent the psychosis that has been my life for the past 3 weeks. This fall I’m basically gone INSANE being in Rexburg without a consistent job; and my roommates can vouch for that. I prayed about it and honestly believed that I was supposed to be here. MAYBE there is a reason I haven’t thought of yet and MAYBE it’s just a safe place for me to be. But I thought something would’ve happened; a GOOD job, a guy, even a best friend, just some direction in my life, a shove in the right direction in at least one area in my life and yet I feel like there has been NOTHING. I’m honestly considering going home early from this semester; just thinking maybe I should be at home with my family right now. During the thanksgiving break I’ll make my decision of whether to stick out the last 3 weeks here or not. In the mean time I’ve considered 2 options to prevent my madness from reoccurring next year (assuming and hoping it subsides when I get back into school next semester.)
First option- I’ve already submitted my application to become a field leader for the SCA (Student Conservation Association- who I did my internship with). This would involve taking kids in high school out to the woods and building trails, and other projects. Essentially “supervising” child labor. I would prefer to think of it as motivating kids while work outdoors; two of my favorite things J. Another reason I want the job is because it typically pays anywhere from 300-550 a week. There are a few dilemmas though, most of the time the SCA wants people with degrees. However I was also under qualified for my internship; every other intern had their bachelors. The other issue is that I probably won’t be able to figure this out until at least February of next year when they start interviewing for positions. There is also the issue that there has to be a position open during the time frame that I am off-track. There are a lot of ifs with this possibility; if the SCA even wants me, if there is a time frame open, and if they think I’m qualified. These pitfalls lead me to choice 2.
Second option- Staying in Rexburg and doing fast track. This would involve pulling out loans, but I could be done with school by winter of 2012 then. I don’t by any means hate Rexburg but I honestly just want to be done with school and move onto to bigger and better adventures, which leads me to my third and fourth big life choices… which will be the next 2 posts. J
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This is probably random coming from me. :) Seeing as how I haven't seen you since I was ten, but thought I would comment anyways. Life decisions are hard especially when you are trying to make them! Sounds like you are doing good things though. I really believe that when we start trying really hard to make the right decisions that Heavenly Father steps in and shows you a little of what he has planned for you. When I started thinking about going on a mission, that is when I met Adam. Not what I expected but the best thing ever! Keep doing what you are doing. Those decisions will sort out.
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